Dear World, I could begin this letter with an apology. Apologizing for the way I look. The size I am. Not being tall enough or short enough. Saying sorry for being to blonde, to white, to whatever society dictates in this moment. I could apologize for being a girl. But I refuse. I refuse to apologize for who I am, ….
ad·dic·tion əˈdikSHən noun noun: addiction; plural noun: addictions 1. the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity. “he committed the theft to finance his drug addiction” synonyms: dependency, dependence, habit, problem devotion to, dedication to, obsession with, infatuation with, passion for, love of, mania for, enslavement to “a slavish addiction to fashion” One little word. So much power. One word. So much ….
As an active toddler who wanted to keep up with her siblings, a competitive figure skater, runner, all around athlete and yogi, physical pain I am use to. Let’s face it in some ways athletes – regardless of where you are on the demanding spectrum dancer to football player- are sadistical. We train hard, getting up at ridiculous hours, going ….
I have never been one of those people who have had an issue with aging. I can hear your laughing in disbelief, but it is true. You might think so. Especially since I live in a city that takes great pride in appearance and youthful exuberance. Where there are just as many Sephoras’ and other cosmetic stores as there are ….
I have written about this a lot. In my journals, poetry, words to get out, to help me heal, personally in private. I have debated a lot about whether or not to post this, I have debated with myself that to post this is to open myself up in a way that for a long time I haven’t been able ….
Sometimes I wondered why I moved here, don’t get me wrong. I love it, every time I walk past Louis, or the plaza, eat at another orgasmic tasting restaurant, or practice yoga in the park I say a silent thank you to the gods above for letting me live here. But let’s be honest there are some very nasty aspects ….
Another year. Another age, do I feel older? Well from yesterday? Uh no. Sorry. I see the crestfallen faces. No twenty-three does not feel different from twenty-two, give it some time people it has only been sixty -eight hours* Isn’t it funny how people automatically assume these transformations? Transformations don’t just happen. You can decide they happen, but it doesn’t ….
I have been super quiet all week, because I didn’t want to say anything, but today is the big day. Today is the day I become the favorite child. I kid, but I think I do rise quite a bit, in my parents eyes. You see I have been plotting with my brother’s girlfriend who is going to be picking ….
Success! Pure and utter success! My flight was a little bumpy coming in, (it always is flying into Portland!) and I hate it! Ce le vie though. It was hysterical because my brother’s GF had a sign waiting for me. And what was more was we had both dyed/changed our hair! Oh that is right Small Town Asanas, I am ….
My trip has truly been interesting and extremely refreshing, not going to lie. I am truly reminded and blessed and happy to be where I am. Saturday night was beautiful as always (the candles are my favorites part…and no it has nothing to do with playing with the candles as a kid…to much) Afterwards I spent it with my madre, ….