“I think it’s important to make art for a myriad of reasons. The least of which is that I think laughter is medicinal, and I think there is an escapism aspect – an act of self-care.” ~ Natasha Rothwell
Long time no chat guys. I think it is safe to say that lately I have sucked at social media. And honestly, I could give to figs. I know that sounds horrible, and I know I am being brutally honest and perhaps just a touch uncouth, but sometimes you have to take a step back and take care of yourself first.
Frankly, I haven’t even been beating myself up (to much) about not posting, which is a first, and just might show how much I needed it. Usually I feel the pressure, the clacking keys their own ticking clock, but the last two weeks I just let the apps lay dormant, and my phone battery die and while that is usually a cause for anxiety, I was content with going into a cocoon.
As my friend told me this past weekend, I have been dealing with a lot, for a long while. Some of which I haven’t even posted on here. While I am a Type-A overachiever, I have been juggling more then I can handle. As much as I loved doing it, and am so proud I did do it, Blogmas kicked my booty and I think for the first time since I started blogging on the now defunct LiveJournal, when I was even shorter then I am now, I finally ended up with blogger burnout. It is real guys!
People can say what they want. But blogging is a job. An extremely time consuming, most times sedentary, tedious, not all glamorous, but gritty job. It isn’t just picture taking, and writing prolific posts. But countless editing, and more editing, formatting, stressing over analytics, building a brand and thus followers, creating content you not only connect with, but is relevant, and so many minutiae tasks that go on behind the scenes before people see the finished product. I am not saying this to complain, because I love blogging, I really do, but every dream job has its pros and cons. Every job gets vacation time and when you work for yourself, especially in an industry where you are always creating, even when you travel for vacations, it can be hard to remember to detach and detox, until life inexplicably does it for you.
Detaching and Detoxing
That is what happened a couple weeks ago, when my grandmother tragically and inexplicably ended up in Intensive Care, before passing away. Not only was I trying to handle my own grief, but that of my familys’. For me, withdrawing from people is a (sometimes unhealthy) coping mechanism I revert to, when I am going through a hard period. I wanted and needed to be present for my family and catch up with them as we all gathered to say good-bye to our matriarch.
Detaching from blogging and social media, was an unconscious, but incredibly necessary action, I didn’t even realize I had done until after the fact. God, The Universe, whatever you believe in, they will give you the signs you need even when you don’t always listen.
Even when I don’t post, I am thinking about posting, feeling the pressures of posting, living, breathing anything to do with my blog and social media. I jokingly call it blog breathing. As a former yoga instructor, but still yogi, breathing and meditating is incredibly important, but sometimes my breath turns into blog breathing. Even when I am meditating, I still will think of my blog.
My blogging muse is seriously type-a!
During my social media hiatus, while I would be remiss to say I didn’t think of my blog or Instagram, I felt none of the pressure and it felt amazing. Further more, I have so much content spinning around in my head, I feel rejuvenated and excited again.
While being go, go, go, is great, you also cannot forget to take time for yourself. To detach and detox, even if it is for an hour. It not only will give you clarity, but it also makes you incredibly grateful. It will probably take me a month to respond to all my messages, but the last few weeks I was reminded of how frickin incredible this community is and how lucky I am for not just the connections I have made, but the very real friendships that have developed from blogging, and that I continue to make.
Every career has pro’s and con’s and sometimes we need to step back to really appreciate what we are doing and where life is taking us and there is nothing wrong with that, because no matter what, being a blogger and following my dreams is exactly what I want to be doing.
Do you ever need a blogging break? Do you get blogger burnout? How do you deal with it?